Life IS preety LONGG!!

I had planned to throw myself in ISOLATION-i mean cut off from friends, party, orkut, facebook, yahoo, ETSECTRA

BUT
BUT
I can still discover myself--without being cut off from the rest of the world--!!!

IS IT WRONG?..AM I RIGHT?...AM I BEING STUPID AGAIN?...AM I NOT FOLLOWING MY WORDS?

Oh!..LET IT BE--FISH IT OFF--I THINK IM LIKE THAT--STUPID--AND I WILL GET OKAY WITH THE TIME

See how a little shopping, outing, hanging can draw you out of all your problems!!!

One thing i DIscoverd about myself is--I change every Nanosecond, outing is my stress buster, and I have a healthy social life!!

Need to go to Rehab?Need to hide myself under a sack? What is it?A teenage Attack?

When I should be the happiest person on this earth why am I so insecure?..when I give it my best
everytime why can't I expect good output?..what am I afraid of?..everytime I plan to open my wings
to take a flight..I feel something stopping me..what is it?>?..Another teenage tale?..certainly it is.

But
then there must be a way out...where is it?..to my right?..to my left?..up?..no..it has be down..where I
can hide myself...I wish!!!

Confession-Half of the time I dont use my brains I say what I hear..And I realise the fact that will
have to pay for this.Not the person to whom those words belong to..But I.

Realisation-I want to lock myself in a room, I wanna hide myself somewhere because I am ashamed
of my words..my action.

Need-I need to know what kind of person am I? the one who is all the time rude?..devil?.. who
doesnt know what to speak when to speak?..what to speak and what not to? Or the one who is
confused all the time and just cant make a choice?..or may be the one who is fifeteen and STILL
trying to figure out things...and not just things but the most important thing.What kind of person she
is?

Whether she likes dinner or partying?

Sneakers or belly?

Rubber band or hair band?

Smart or Cute?

Pen or pencil?

And a trillion of such stupid things.

God knows where this stupid,confused path will take me> All I know is I need space,I need time,I
need to get underground and hide myself till the time I am prepared for every question that comes
my way.

And for that I ll have to take a decision that MAKES me feel isolated-I ll have to quite all
my social networks,my phone(each word is hitting me so hard that dont wanna write more of these things).

But i promise I will figure it out one day and will be writing a post explaning-Myself.

forever

A stroll beside the river,
pleasant wind,cold breeze and
scent floating in the air.....
we walk hand in hand
appreciating each passing moment,
wishing we remain like this for-ev-er
Drenched in each other's love
Drowned in each other's eyes we smile,giving assurance that we ll die
tog-e-th-er and will say buhbye to this world
to live between the stars and clouds fore-ver.....
Seeing a shooting star,we secretly closed our eyes,wishing to have a wonderful life.
A wonderful life in which we get to hear, nothing but the footsteps of each other....
A wonderful life in which we re lost into each other's eyes...seeking love and passion everytime.
A wondeful life in which we feel our hand go firm with every rising tide..
A wondeful life in which we live between the stars and clouds fore-ver.

BarefeeT Queen Of The Day!!

If I ever become a celebrity and if ever a reporter askes me my MOST EMBARRISING
moment!!...Guess What?..I now have an answer!!!>

To start with it was the day when little demon was born-that is my Bro's B'day>>>My family had decided to celebrate in INDIA GATE as we used to do back when we were kids>>>and the whole idea of bringing back old memories inspired ALL my relatives and we went there for
dinner>>>I was least interested and already low for some bloody reasons I was also last to get
ready so when my mom came telling me that I should'nt be wearing heels for the occasion I LET the
words travel my head and escape from the other end>>>

After we reached there struggling to find the place where everybody could sit and chat I clicked
lots and lots of pics and convinced myself that Get together here was NOT a bad idea..it was cool,
winds were blowing, no signs of flies, and above all everybody WAS enjoYing.>>>

Then came The Moment Of My Life when I was told to get the car stereo from where the car was
parked and some other thingz..NOT of my use!!..(i hate to be mean but..please that journey of mine to the
car made me ''The Barefoot Queen") .
I was literally running to my car--oh!kay..I am scared of people..so that makes sense>!!

And i tripped..TRIPPED.. T R I P P E D!! getting as reward the broken strap of my heel..B R O K E N
S T R A P!!!
and I was ALL---fcuk( i didnt say it loud..because hellaoo this is India we don't abuse loud
specially-girls..Be it your STUPID HEEL!!)
Thanx to my Genious Brains I had my mum's phone( my sim card was bruttally BROKEN by my mom
cuz i was reading this novel." p.s-i love you" till 5 in the morning.) I was calling my cousin and was
slipping my foot to reach the car--Who the bloody ******* hell had parked the car so far--
Finally she picked the phone up

Me---DEE(literally shouting) where are you?
Dee--where are YOU?
Me---I am here at the parking area (my voice broken-because till now I had rashes on my foot--thanx
to the strap!!!) I was supposed to be getting stereo but my strap broke, send kartik to the car so that i
can change my heels
Dee---where are you?..(NOW CONCERNED)
Mee--AT THE PARKING AREA
Mee--OHH!!..u here too...i got you.( putting the flap off)
Dee-What happend? (looking to my bruised feet--(NOW CONCERNED)
Mee--I Broke my strap,i am goin to the car, send kartik with a pair of slippers
Dee--Where are you going?
Mee--( NOW FRUSTRATED)--To the CAR
Dee-- Lock the doors.
Mee-(nodding)--yeah
*************
6-7 minutes later..I_was_in_the_car_telling_one_of_my_friend_about_the_incident.
I saw kartik(my bro) coming with a pair of white slipper--FLAT...thank God!!.
I threw the heels inside the car picked up the stereo, and the purse--NOT of my use
and rushed to where everybody was sitting!!>>Hooooofff!!,,,relief!!!...
I was once again enjoing myself playing with the ball, badminton, clicking pictures.Kartik cut the
cake, we sang, bought gajra(white flowers stitched in a thread) to make posses for the pictures..
After dinner we decided to go to NIRULA'S

Everybody got into the car went to Cannaught Place and stooped by NIRULA'S(ONE OF THE
MOST REPUTATED AND SOPHISTICSTED PLACE ON EARTH)
I took a deep breath and prepared myself for the upcoming trouble...

one step-im out of the car,...

step two, towards NIRULA'S....

step three onto the footpath....

step four towards the NIRULA'S....

step five on the marble....

step six on the stairs.....

step seven--the door and my first trouble--the Door Man
SURPRISINGLY he didnt noticed my feet--MY B A R E F E ET!!
WHOA..My first success

Just ONE couple INSIDE!!!--My Second Success!!

One Man STARED at my feet..I stared BACK--MY TOTAL SUCCESS.!!!>>

WHOA!!!....I AM PROUD OF BEING A BAREFEET QUEEN!!!!

P.S- Have confidence in your life and you WILL beat the man staring at your feet MINUS shoes.

PPS-Thanx Noami for reading all my posts and for throwing comments,these comment really
encourage me A LOT thanx a tonn!!

Ms.BuSY BeE!

9th may 2009

Wow!!..when you have so many things in your mind you find it really difficult to even gulp one
sandwich which is so heartedly made by your mum!!!..

I am usually very low when I find myself wrong for something,in the whole week I was going
good..Unexpetedly good..except for that one mistake when I think I over excersised in the gym.I
mean 50 counts on stretch up and 50 counts on hight gaining machine is no less..speacially for a gym
BeGINNer!!. Anyway I was so tired that day,i slept approximately 5 hrs and missed my physics
tution.I felt so bad! and it was made worse when I realised that two of my very good friends would
be leaving in another two-three days.I was really low,I had Bounty-the choclate kept for long in my
fridge and as expected felt better.I had to make my next day rocking!..and if not that atleast good
enough because I just hate to be depressed,and above all it was my lil demon's birthday.

So in order to have a nice day I set my alarm at 8 o clock..I had so many things to do..it was
uncertain that i could make this day better...But but as it is said-Nothing is good or bad--Its the way
you make it!..Thanks to my tubelight,my sister couldnt tell what time it was in the morning.she said it
was 8 30..and i was like"WTF!!...why didnt my alarm worked??.." setting the washing machine on I
got ready looked at the watch and was surpriced at the site of it- IT was just 8 o clock in the
morning!!..whoa..felt like hugging my sister...but..puhleese..!!..

Another thing that came to my mind was--taking into account that I woke up at six thirty in the
morning why did I took so long to dress up...knowing that I have my guitar class after gym!..

and
realised it was probabaly the fact that I took long sitting in the shit pot..u can call it my ''thinking
chair"..I was thinking of the fight that me and my friends were having from the past week.I love my
friends like anything..like nobody..and I knew everything was going to be JUST fine..and this was
not the fact that was keeping my mind occupied!..it was the fact that i was guilty of what i had said
to one of my friend on phone..she IS sweet...but a little hyper and it was her who FORCED me to
speak which was'nt true just my way to keep her MUM for a moment.I felt so so so bad!..WTF?!..

I
couldnt do anything>what was i supposed to do anyway?..ABSOLUTELY notHING>!

HAPPY for the fact that I had dressed up early compared to my daily routine I rushed to the bus stop
took auto and flew to the gym!>..AND aading onto my happiness I also reached home as scheduled
and landed to my guitar class ten minutes EARLY. The whole thought of my success to accomplish
both the tasks provides my 100watt smile with a little more energy to make it 1000watt!

All This happiness couldnt stop me to think what I was thinking sitting on my "Thinking chair" early
in the morning!>...what do I do?..why am I so evil?..couldnt i tell her to just shut up?..couldnt I just
stop myself to give stupid statementZ?!?..WTF?!
Anyway..I will see what comes next and I totally know its all my fault and I will do whatever it
takes.
p.s- This is to aaki.--aaki if ur reading this post all i would like to say is-I am really sorry i didnt
meant anythinG !!..we ll start from the starting..a whole new beginning where there will be
absolutely no misunderstandings!>

DISCOVER your HAPPINESS!!

Do you remember the last time you really laughed till your stomach ache? Do you remember the last time you smiled and others could see your heart through it? Do you remember the last time you felt that your life is worth living?

If it is a ‘yes’
you are living a life which is no less than life of a ‘Princess’ or I should rather say a ‘Queen’. Value your life, remember the life you are leading is a life people die to live its a life that even Super Stars die to have. You have novels to read, notepads to write, computer to surf, friends to laugh with, parents to care, knowledge to gain, life to live, and above all freedom to do what your heart yearns for!!

But if it is a ‘no’ then
try and discover your happiness. Remember what made you laugh when you were a toddler. Were they the bells of temple? Or shouts of vendors? Were they the swings? Was it a chocolate? Or may be the united colours of balloons? Or just a hug?

Remember those moments that made you laugh that made you smiled…because it’s the Time…as it is said “Better Late
Than Never” ….Discover the moments that gives you happiness.

I feel happy and contended when I write something..when I talk to my friends, when I read my novels, when I listen to the songs at the highest of its frequency and shout my voice box out..it gives me so much of happiness when I create something of my own it may be just a bookmark!!. It gives me happiness when I water my plants..wash their leaves and pet them …. It gives me happiness when I clean the dirtiest part of my home, when I hug my parents, when I apply kajal, when I comb my conditioned hair and admire myself in the mirror, when I see rainfall, when I smell the soil, when I dream of being drenched while along with my friends.

Lets not limit our happiness..Lets not presume that happiness is gained only with the help of unmaterialistic things..Lets just stop thinking about things that do not provide us with a smile on our faces.Lets just be Happy and Lets make others so..

P.S.-The best of happiness is the happiness when u make other happy and see them smile because of you..( no doubts why people love to throw surprises).